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Saturday, March 25, 2006

C C C C
That was the number of times I checked which company i was posted to on Monday. I never know anything about SISPEC. I just know that Delta company is the welfare company. It was until I heard from people murmuring that Charlie is a SIONG company. Si liao la. I thought there would be some hope man. Like what I heard was wrong. So I just happily went to the compnay line. But things took a change right after the OC talk. I dare say my mood is 0% from that point of time. I have no mood to do anything boy. All I want is to out of course. Right now, I still have the urge. The discipline in Charlieis simply too strict and the physical trainings are like *$()*!%#()@*)$(*!@_(**! Everyday got this run that run. AGR still need to sing song when we have to run for 4.2 km. Fortunately the warrant PTI who is round 40 I guess is kind enough to force us to stop the songs. The sergeant all diam diam. Goodness la when we are already runnning so damn fucking near during AGR and still want us to keep close. Trip lei. Trip already how? Even got a staff sergeant scold us that we are none other than a fucking dog which is totally humiliating.

Throughout this week I got fucked a few times for responding to the command wrongly. Another thing is SBJ during IPPT, I do not want to jump and just anyhow jump to please the sergeant but kanna fucked in the end. Runnin g2.4 also got fucked after i Report to the wrong station. Technical handling test also got problem. Then was adviesd that, " Anxiety does not make a good man!" But I wasd really nervous at that time. That's why I should be OOC cause I should not be there.

And it's only one week. Adjustment week is over. I wonder what type of punishments we will get? I feeling lonely in the company though I do know 3 to 4 people befirehand. So everyday, mostly I just keep quiet and talk when necessary. Life is sad. And I feel so alone so alone. I miss my BMT friends. I miss my friends. But this may be the last time that I get to write my feelings in the blog. Me being prone to mistakes may just be confined fromnext week onwards.

Sobbing.

aik*joOn wash up @ 5:38 AM

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